it’s so hot today. but it is beautiful.
ah my economics class starts in 8 minutes.
i don’t want to leave this air-conditioned library.
peaceness.
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woke up.
ngehh.
woke up again.
bike to the beach (approx. 3 miles)
oOo gelato!
stared at the ocean.
jumped into the ocean.
biked home (approx. another 3 miles)
shower.
summer school – literature class.
poetry.
lunch with parentals.
sushi.
“working” in my office.
going to school soon – economics class.
the lesson of the day: … strawberry gelato is delicious.
god bless =)
I’m officially in my summer days. But oh it shall be eventful. Jordyn and I will be leaving for the music tour tomorrow. Oh, and I will be turning 21 soon. I do have to do summer school when I get back from the tour though. I’ll be taking economics and literature at Mira Costa College to finish up some GE that I held from doing until now. And no, I was not lazy. I actually just declared two minors, International Development Studies and Non-Profit Organizational Management. Thus, I’m adding in more classes which made me want to take summer classes to lessen the load for the semesters. I’m excited for next school year. Living in an apartment with the greatest friends ever will be legitimate. Interning as an event planner/sales and marketing director will be fun. And free tuition for martial arts academy sounds really cool and plus I get a workout with that. Oh, and then I’m deciding whether to work for Island Palms Resort. Heh… that’s a bunch of stuff.
Then at the end of summer, I’ll be going to the Philippines to begin the mission project of the Human Factor Learning Center. I plan to meet with the pastor and members of local churches in the area to talk about the project and share the vision. Also, I will meet with the mayor. I will look at the land that I currently have and see if that’s the best location. I have to learn how to be an architect because I will draw in the floorplans of the center. This is exciting. And I know I can not do this on my own. God has been so faithful and has been providing everything! No joke! He’s giving this project awesome people who support it in prayer and finances, He’s provided the financial factors, everything! I feel like I haven’t done anything really except share my music, pray, and ask, and then He does everything else by moving in people’s hearts! I love Him. But yes, the project is on its way!
As of other activities in summer, I would like to run, bike, surf, write music, start recording more songs (perhaps start the second album… hmm.. perhaps?), work, outreach, and others.
I’m excited for all my friends going on mission trips this summer! That’s awesome!
I’m sitting here in my office and Pandora Radio is on my computer. The song “True Love” by Phil Wickham was just playing. One line from that song keeps repeating in my head:
“The day that True Love died, the day that True Love died…”
I knew today was Good Friday, the day we remember Jesus and the sacrifice that He did for us. But this moment of echoing phrases of the day that our Love, our Savior, the One who chases after our hearts died, but not only was it death, it was death on MY account. I thought about how something so pure, so true, so beautiful died for me, something so unpure, sinful, and filthy. This death was done to make me pure, righteous, and holy again, so that I may have that chance (a chance I do not even deserve) to see that beautiful, pure, true Love that did that all for me.
I’ve been in this state of confusion, frustration, …. i don’t even know what to categorize it as. Many times I’ve turned from God. Many times I’ve repeated the same mistakes. Many times I’ve closed the door that He desperately keeps open for me. I ask myself how I could be such a fool and deliberately continue on with things that I do. I don’t know, is my answer.
The day that True Love died should be the day that my desires, my sin, my selfishness died too. His passion was to be with me. I want my passion to be with Him. I want my passion to not hurt Him anymore than I’ve already have. My passion is Christ.
THURSDAY, MARCH 12, 2009
Sorry I haven’t been blogging the past couple of days. Well, Tuesday, we originally planned to go play at Balboa Park, but I needed an entertainment permit to do so. So, we ended up meeting with our friend, Camille, and went to Ocean Beach. That was fun. We just worshipped and got to talk to people and just chill. Had a small lunch at this one place called Newbreak. ‘Twas delightful. We then went to set up at the Epicenter in Mira Mesa. It was such a great time worshipping with the people at NexGeneration Church. I love meeting new people. We then had a late dinner with some of the NexGen peeps at Carl’s Jr. which ended up having a blackout! whoa! So we were escorted out of the place only to semi-witness a person breaking a window at the building next to us. Quite an interesting night. Camille and her family opened up their house for Jor and I to stay. =)
The following day (Wednesday) we had frozen yogurt and chilled at the park. this day was filled with “childlike’ stuff. I had a very kiddy yogurt cup that made me feel like a kid. At the park, a little boy was feeding some ducks and just had this great joy that made me want to have that joy that only comes from children. Then, later on, Camille and I went to a playground and played on swingsets and such and I just felt like a kid again. We went to Ocean Beach Farmer’s Market and found a spot to set up and play and sing. ‘Twas fun. But we ended up giving our spot to another musician. It was then time for Jor and I to say goodbye to Camille. So Jor and I ended up going to Vista to help out at this family transition center called Solutions for Change. And again, this day was filled with “childlike” stuff. I ended up spending time with children there and talking/playing with them. My heart gets so jumpy and melty when I’m with kids. I feel like God has helped to stir up a passion for children in my heart. I became even more excited about the Learning Center in the Philippines. Jor and I ended the day watching “Saving Private Ryan.”
Now today, it’s pretty much a chill day. There are no plans except to prepare for our next two shows. I’m really excited about the two shows, one in Anaheim, the other in Pasadena. Well, I’m sorry again for no video blogs. I still have not figures out Jordyn’s computer and why it’s not uploading any of the videos. But I’m stoked to upload them eventually. i’ll post it eventually. Ok, til next time.
Monday, March 9, 2009
I got out of bed (actually, the couch) at noon. I know, killed daylight. But I ended up feeling really sick for the first few hours of my day. Jordyn and I decided to go to Starbucks before we headed to the Oceanside pier. We met a guy named David while at Starbucks. An interesting conversation arose from that encounter. It was good. He asked me what I would do with people who hated me, who wanted to kill me. God opened the door for me to answer with love, and I simply replied, “I would love them no matter what.” His expression was of shock, but I believe it was something he needed to hear. Jordyn and I spent about 3 hours on the Oceanside pier. I loved talking with anyone and everyone who stopped to listen. It was such a nice and relaxing time to be right by the ocean and ust worshipping. I felt a whole lot better, and my sick feeling ended up gone! But unfortunately, the police came and kicked us out. I did not know that we were not allowed to just randomly show up and play on the pier. Oops. But it was all good. Next time I have to check if I’m allowed to play when it comes to places like that. I just finished eating dinner with Jordyn, my older brother, and my sister-in-law. Yum. Today was splendid. Tomorrow is another day.
note: I still have yet to upload my video blogs. Sorry.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Just got done with the first day of the tour. Jordyn and I did a song at my home church in Oceanside this morning. Eating lunch at Chili’s was scrumptious. It was nice to spend some time with Jordyn’s friends, Stefeno and Herb, before they left. Jordyn and I then went to Santa Ana to play songs of worship. That was fun! The youth group at Santa Ana First Church of the Nazarene were an amazing group of people. I really enjoyed just being around them. They’re a real bunch of joy. Had dinner at KFC, yum. And now we are closing the night watching The Parent Trap on the Disney Channel. It was a long day – lots of driving. But overall, it was chill. Oh! I’m doing a little Vlog of my tour. I’m supposed to post up a video of today’s doings, but I’m trying to figure out how to do upload the video onto this laptop (I’m using Jordyn’s laptop, mine broke.) So yes, videos shall be posted up eventually. We’ll see. Have a good night.
I’m desperate for God. So desperate. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to do and how to do it. He’s refining me right now, and it hurts, it’s confusing, it’s frustrating – but it’s worth it, and that’s why I say it’s beautiful. It’s so beautiful.
I’m getting ready for my little SoCal Tour next week. It’s midterm week here at school, but I’m on chill mode with school right now, so that’s legitimate. But I’m excited for next week.
okay. I don’t have much to say about me right now. I’m planning on having a “SoCal Tour 2009 Blog” all next week. So if you want to keep up in that, sweet. I’ll probably have prayer requests posted up for each day, so prayer would be awesome! Thanks!
I’m not really good with keeping my blogs updated. But here is the latest update. I released my CD about a week ago. That was cool. If anyone is interested in getting one, let me know via email isannrose@hotmail.com
I’ve been having this huge desperation to hear God’s voice. I’m challenged to be patient and trusting that no matter what, God is there, even when it does not feel like it. I’ve been wanting freedom from old habits that still are a part of me, and that goes along with feeling lonely and wanting God to be ever-present. It’s frustrating, no lie. But it’s beautiful too. It’s beautiful to be in this place where all I can rely on is something much greater than I. It’s beautiful to be in a state of loneliness and brokenness and confusion, because I have this hope that when tat day of freedom comes and I can feel my Father holding me, it will all be worth the wait and the crying and the brokenness, because He will simply whisper a beautiful song into my ear. hmmm…. that makes me happy.
Happy New Year! 2009 will be legitimate and I can not wait to see what God has in store. Well, I’m leaving for Michigan in less than 24 hours, but I’m actually landing in Chicago, IL. I’m excited! I hope there will be lots of snow. I’ll be releasing my album in Michigan this Saturday (January 3, 2009). Please pray for safe travel and all. That would be awesome.
